Stuff

Just some random stuff I thought I would comment on...

1. I am so glad the weather has turned cold here in Georgia! I dont like cold weather as much as nice weather, but it is a refreshing change from the 8 months of summer we had experienced this year! And it is just in time for the holidays, which should be cold in my opinion. Now I can get into the spirit of things! We are getting our tree next week (yes it is early, but we have just over three weeks til the baby comes and I have to get Christmas ready now because I wont be feeling up to it when Christmas arrives.) I have already found a few gifts for Luxie and that is a weight off of my shoulders that I am at least partially prepared!

2. As I mentioned above, we have just over three weeks before the new baby girl arrives, and I am so ready, but so not ready! I dont want to go thru it, oh man, I dont want to have the surgery, several months with no sleep, breastfeeding, worry, aaaaaa! But I am so ready to not be pregnant, to see this little girl and finally experience who she is. I find motherhood to be such a contradiction of feelings and emotions, and I am experiencing them all right now!

3. Luxie just went thru her third illness since early October, and I am exhausted. I am a queasy person anyway, and a bit of a germophobe, so sickness and I dont go well together. I am a bundle of nerves when she gets sick, because she has always struggled with being in the 5th percentile for weight. So whenever she gets sick she loses any extra (if you can call it that) that she has. She was so sick in October and lost several pounds, and just as she was beginning to look normal again she got this stomach virus and has been sick since Monday. She is having trouble keeping her 18month pants up (and she is over 2 and a half.) I have such a hard time getting pants to fit her because her height is good but her waist is tiny--so 18 month pants are highwaters on her but 2T pants are enormous. But such is life. What has also been frustrating is that she had to miss her friend's birthday party earlier this month, and now I have missed two women's events at our church because Nate was out of town and I couldnt put her in childcare. Rats!

4. I always like the end of the year because I see it as a closing, with the door of the new year opening. I get excited to see what God has in store for us next year. I look forward to change, surprise, challenge. I say that and I am certain my husband is laughing out loud as he reads it because I tend to freak out and cry when challenges do arise! But monotony wears on me, so I guess that's why I look forward to new possibilities. Will we move? Will the ProPain album finally come out? What will be the result of that? Will I really be able to take care of two kids? What will 2006 bring? We shall see...