wow

i have said it before and i will say it again. being a mom is hard work. so hard. i never knew how hard it would be. and it is fun, and amazing, and wonderful, and soooo good too. but so hard. remember that scene in "ya ya sisterhood" when ashley judd just walks away and drives to the beach for a few days. i so want to do that sometimes. just be alone. not be needed. not be depended on. i want to do my things. i want to take care of me for a change. i want to not be guessing all the time. i want to think about things i enjoy. and i do enjoy them so much, but i get so TIRED. so...tired. i want to be at rest.